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I’ve spent a long time thinking before writting this post of mine, I’m not going to say who it is for because everyone knows who’s got me by my balls, don’t get me wrong getting gropped by the balls by someone you love is all a different story. I’ve known my girlfriend as long as I know any of my best friends and you could say she is my best friend, we’ve had our differences and have gone our own ways before, but love is a funny thing and I know that now we were meant to be together, cause no matter how much we fight about the fact that someone has to be wrong or the fact that I spent to much time talking to my pets, she never fails to forgive me for my faults and is always trying to be more understanding than the day before. I’ve been in a relationship long enough to know that,it is not easy for both of us, we have our own ways of thinking and solving problems, but that is what makes my relationship so much more better,because I find out things in my life that I have to change and make better. If someone were to ask me if I ever regret fighting with my girlfriend, I would say NO, because I feel that she has made me a better person everytime we fight. All this time for all the things in life that I’ve gone through I would live another whole life with you my love with no regrets. ACK !!! Mandy has got me by my Balls……!!!

I’ve been wanting to post this along time ago, but knowing me I delay everything in life. I left college now nearly a month ago, yet it seems to me like it was just yesterday. It feels like just yesterday I here Levin saying "HITZ FM" in the middle of the night or waiting for Wee Hock to ask us to eat wan tan mee or nasi lemak, Or just listening to Ah Tec excuses why he can’t come out to play with us.

The day I step foot into INTI, I thought I was doomed for, everyone I MEAN everyone spoke mandarin/hokkien/cantonese. Me being a Banana(I’m yellow on the outside but white in the inside) had this great barrier with trying to communicate with my fellow coursemates, Then of course I met Ah Tech, The first time I saw him I SWEAR he looked like a girl from the back, but when he turned around I SWEAR he has a damn lansi face.Then there was Wee Hock,well the problem with Wee Hock is he seems to look like he is always sleepy and he is always sleeping,when we are awake he is sleeping and when we are asleep he is awake, hence came the nick name Batman. Then there was Levin a innocent looking top student but a devil in disguise. Then we have our Bookie Chong Tatt. When you put all those people together you have Infinite Studios,The best group that could ever be formed in the history of BMS.

My brothers from INTI if you are reading this, Let me tell you I’ve left INTI and I don’t miss it, But I miss INTI for what it had,INTI had all my good friends that I’ve found over the years I’ve spent in that hell hole. INTI is the birthplace of INFINITE studios and where I’ve found you guys who I can call my brothers, We might have gone our separate ways and we’ve started a journey and we might not even turn back to remember our history we had. But remember this Levin is the best programmer there will ever be, Wee Hock is the most artistic and the KING OF DIRECTOR,Ah Tech you are the DJ MASTER and YOU LOOK LIKE AN F4 look alike and Chong Tatt you are the PACKAGING KING the best there ever will be. Take care my brothers.

5.02 AM and I’m still awake,I’m sitting here cause I slept at 6.00 PM and now I’m wide awake.Life passes and moves so fast and now a days we don’t spent the time to smell the dog shit at the side of the road,Everyday our lives seems so automated,just like an assembly line in a factory, the machine starts and at the end of the day out comes the product, the product that makes our lives boring. We simply are just turning into robots, in fact we are more efficient that robots. Sometimes I feel that we need to have changes in our lives, for instances drink more COKE cause PEPSI sucks, Or drink COKE cause PEPSI STILL SUCKS or the next time when you have to pay the total of RM 99.90 for a t-shirt at TOP-SHOP pay the cashier with coins ONLY. People plan to go everywhere or do anything, I say don’t plan just do it. You plan everything so much so you’ve plan your whole life, if you’ve already plan your whole life whats the use of living it, Life is a mystery cause tomorrow holds a new story to be unfold, So the next time you wake and go to class or work do something different like don’t wear your underwear or even better have breakfast naked on your dining table, make a change in your lives,live life by drinking more COKE cause it one heck of a drink or just live life as a story book which brings you on a mysterious journey of screws ups and fuck ups. So wake up and smell the DOG SHIT if it doesn’t smell pack it and microwave it.

I’m not bored, seriously…..and for the love of GOD…why the fcuk did I start a blog,Everyone has one right ? should I have one ? AM I JUST ANOTHER person jotting down their feelings and their SHIT A$$ lives online ? I don’t know, life seems so oblivious too me, Its not that I don’t have a great life, I do have a great life,great mother,great brother(sometimes and A$$) and most important a great girlfriend who sometimes holds me by the balls. Its 3.04 am and I’ve started my first blog…my first post….sometimes I wish life was more than what it seems…don’t get what I mean ? Well for instances wouldn’t you want your life to be simple or pre-determined ? You are born,you study, you graduate,you work,you get married….life goes on….But I wonder what my life is about, The more I think about life and my life the more I see myself as an insignificant dot in this world, for CRYING OUT LOUD even ants play a bigger role than me in this world.Seriously ?? Are we really put into this world to make it a better place ? What if I turn into a serial-rapist ? Did I really make this world a better place ? Or do we have to choose things we do in our lives to make this world a better place ? I’ve got so many questions and yet I get answers which only underlies more questions, The rich get richer the poor get poorer…..The scum on the earth get a way with murder and I get summoned for speeding cause I had a stomach ache…come on man….I really needed to crap…I’m about to grad from my joyful life of college, and I’m getting the jitters of the real world….its time now to leave the safety of the college and face the brutal world of office politics and the a$$ kissing of the working life….am I going to make it ? I wouldn’t know and I don’t think I would give a shit…what makes the world go round and round ??? MONEY….hey I’ve got a question for all you MOFO’s out there "Can money make you happy ?"….My answer to that "YES" money makes you happy….cause money puts you through hunger….money gives you a bed to sleep in…money puts your children through college…money is not everything…but money makes you happy and don’t give me some religious bullshit about any GOD….GOD took something away from me and it ain’t making me any happier….I know money can’t buy me everything…but money will make me happier cause it makes my life easier…I may not have all the answers but I have alot of questions…KOTE KU PANJANG ?